hopeless dream..
When I was walking home… (I don’t really remember when… but I think it was last Tuesday… Well anyway!!) I was walking… And I remembered my dream (not really a dream! It’s just something…) when I was in sophomore or junior?? Or is it in my senior year?? Well, can’t really remember… On with my story… I’ll tell you this…
It’s about my deepest, darkest but open secret!! (Wait! I’ll explain why… It’s really deep because I can’t understand why! And it’s dark…. I like the word eh! It’s something evil!!! Bwahahaha!! and it’s open because almost all of my friends know this!! It’s a secret because you might not actually know this!! So don’t be shock! ok??)
Here goes! It’s nothing big!! You might not even be shock to read this.. But before, as in BEFORE (BEFORE, ok?), I really, really, really like to be a guy, even for just one day… I was even considered a guy in our class… (not really.. it’s just me dreaming.. hahaha..) Since we have 8 guys and 11 gals, they always tease me I’m one of the guys! (The boys did!) Well, It’s really fun being one of them rather than being one of….
Even though I was having a great time hanging out with the guys, that is not the real reason why I wanted to be one of them! But you know, it’s really fun hanging out with them.. You can really share anything with them.. And they can tell you the deepest secrets!! Hahahah! I really miss those times!! (Well, my bonding with boony, mahjong, tyantyan, waway, kapre, shanong parak, dar, kwago, and baks… hehehe… all except brandon…. We had our time… I also want to say soooorry to all those people who shared their secrets with me! hahaha! you know why!)
The reason why I wanted to be a guy is I was and still am curious!! I want to know the feeling of courting someone!! There! I’ve said it!! Since no one is courting me and I am not satisfied with something… I want to feel how you court someone!! It’s kinda frustrating watching someone… you know! That! Sigh!! Then I realized it was really, really, super, duper hard to court someone! So I conclude that I like to be the one courted… So now, I’m a girl!! (Hahaha!! Will never wish to be a guy again! I think?)
Maybe I wish to portray my dream guy or something… But I really can’t marry myself, can I? But maybe deep in me, I still hold that dream…
- bebeh
Reborn!
I’m back!! It’s been a long time since I’ve posted something… I was busy with things and stuff.. And besides I was really, really lazy… And there’s the problem with my connection! Stupid phone!!
Well, anyway! Chinese New Year is seven or eight days away! Sorry, I’m confused in getting the exact you know! Whatever! Chinese New Year is near!
Is moon cake festival and chinese new year the same?? I know, I’m a chinese and I don’t even know! Hahaha… I want to play the throwing dice thingy or something. I don’t really know what you call that.. Hope I can throw those dice again!
I hope I would be reborn this year! I really want to change something but I know it’s hard because I’ve been doing it ever since. But maybe.. Just maybe I can still hope..
Hope you understand whatever I wanted to say… Well, if you don’t… leave it that way..
- sLeepy >___<
unacceptable..
I can’t accept it! I know I have no say in this matter but I really can’t accept it!
Just recently, I noticed that she’s taking it away! I know I don’t own it but I don’t want to share! I want it to be just mine. Maybe it’s selfish… Sigh!
When I’m with them, I feel like I’m invisible… I know that they both love me… But sometimes, I can’t reach out to them.. She’s always trying to all her attention… Before it was just the two of us.. Sharing a special bonding no one can break…
Maybe it’s time for me to grow-up. I can’t always have her by my side.. But I want to be special to her.. I just realize this insecurity.. And I don’t really like it…
Whoever you are, you’re always special to me.. I’ll always keep you in my heart….
- sleepy >___<
yay!
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeh!! I’m so haaapppy!!! I can’t believe it! My mother really bought me a PSP! Yay! I thought she would change her mind and will not buy one… But she did buy me one!!!
I really thought I won’t get my PSP! Because they keep saying later.. And I was really happy when she told me to go and search then call her.. Well, I did that. And there! I got my PSP!!!
I will take good care of this gift to me because for me it’s very memorable! My mother and father keeps calling it PIP! And also because they bought it together for me! Hahahaha… I so loooooooooooooove it!!
I know you won’t ever read this but I want to say thank you Ma and Pa! I love you!
– sLeepy >___<
Happy Birthday, boony!
Happy New Year!
First of all, I want to greet all of you, welcome to the year 2008!! Yay! We survived another year! Let’s say our goodbye to year 2007 and let all the bad memories, unfortunate experience and hateful thoughts go with it.. I hope we have a very prosperous new year this 2008!
Now, after all that thing, I want to post my revised new year’s resolution.. I already posted a resolution before in my other blog but I decided to post a new one for several reasons… I think that this is a better resolution than before… So I hope you would read it! And don’t forget to leave your comments! Here’s my revised new year’s resolution for 2008!
I wish to be a better person! I know my reasons are selfish but I want to prove to them that they are wrong about what they think! To achieve that, I need to be physically fit, academically excellent, emotionally and financially stable…
At the end of the year, I am hoping to be a finer lady… for some reasons…
For many years, I always wish to be an outspoken person who would say anything she feels and think… It would help me a lot!
I want to be a good daughter! I really feel lucky for having them as my parents! And I want them to be proud of me! So I will do my best!
Think what is important and don’t bother with others comments that would bring me down…
Abstain from physically hurting others! And avoid saying cuss words…
Most of all, express the love while the chance is there! Rather than to regret it when the time runs out..
I may find a hard time doing my resolution but I would still try my best to change for the better! It’s time to change and make the world a better place! Live everyday to fullest for you will never know when is your last day..
- sLeepy >___<
Happy New Year!
miracle..
I think I would remember the last day of year 2007! Well, because I woke up early than usual just to get that reward!
If you’re wondering what I’m talking about, let me tell you the story…
It was around seven in the morning when my mother came to wake us up.. When she saw that no one of us move, she said that whoever was the first one to go down and help would have a reward.. Well, I was the only one who stood up and asked her to buy me a PSP! She said yes!
I just hope she would really buy me one! Hehehe…
I think that I will have a nice day today..
- sLeepy >___<
moonstruck…
I soooooooo love the hair!!! I want to thank the following people:
Cheng2x for my stylish hair… Carmi for the bloodshot clam… Sisters of Vonn for the pen with giraffe on top… Araah for the alabaster earrings… Vonn for the shooting place, their room… Lily for taking this lovely photo… Carlo for the shiny sapphire pillow… Enchanted for my snow get-up… And all the other people in the room for … well, cheering me up, I guess? ___ for popping in my mind, you were my inspiration in this pose…
I really appreciate you guys for indulging me in my occasionally lunatic ideas… Hope you’ll support me again next time!
overlooked…
A small gesture can express a thousand words.. A touch may show your feelings.. A hug may show your longing.. A kiss may show your desire.. A word can mean the world to her..
But these tiny hints are sometimes overlooked.. It may be insignificant to you..but to her, it may be full of emotions..
You need to be keen to note that itsy-bitsy affections…
It might take you by surprise… Hope so…
- sLeepy >___<
我 想念 你…
helpless
It’s difficult when you want to help but you cannot do anything… You want to give but you have nothing to give.. There’s so many ifs that gets you frustrated..
Sometimes being a good friend has its disadvantage. You feel guilty for doing nothing when you’re friend needs help. Well, not totally doing nothing but you can’t really help. You’re just there for support…
Sigh..
We know that you need our help. But please try to understand that we can’t really do anything but support you through your problems.. We ourselves are just depending to our parents. We know that it’s unfair that you’re suffering this kind of problem when you’re still young but we’re also suffering, doing nothing but hoping you can pass through this test..Always remember that God does not give any problems without solutions..
- sLeepy >___<
Happy Birthday, Xian!
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