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March 18, 2008 Posted by c0okieeatingpanda | Dreamy, Frown, Serious | | No Comments Yet

revitalized!

 Okie!!! Let’s stop being emo and stuff… 

Lately, I’ve been thinking of doing something big, something important, something that would make me look at life more… positively!! So I’ve decided to get a new life!!! Yup, you read it right! I want to change myself to be someone better with a more optimistic view on everything… Someone who is happier with life…

Here’s my plan:

First of all, I should act more like a girl! My mom always told me I’m so magaspang kumilos… So I’ll try my luck in being mahinhin… Mahinhin as in giiiiiiiiiiirly!!! Kikay and everything… I’m not promising anything but I’ll try… But I don’t think I can, ever… Hehehe! (O, whoever my fairy godmother is… help me!!)

Second, take things more slowly!!! As in super slowly!!! I’ve been doing things in a fast forward mode… And because of that, I’m left with nothing to do.. So from now on, I’ll keep a slow pace in everything I do like reading novels, watching a series, walking, and everything! (I’ll make namnam the view!~ heeheehee..)

Third, always look on the positive side…You know, in every negative number there’s always a positive sign… (Like you can’t get a negative number without a positive sign! Right??) And you can always get a positive sign from two negatives! (Hahaha! I just realized that!) So I will always remember to look for the positive side!

Hmnn… Can’t think of anything else at the moment… 

Okie! SO there! I hope I can accomplish that!! 

- ivy

March 15, 2008 Posted by c0okieeatingpanda | Giggle, Smile | | No Comments Yet

somewhere in between..

I’m somewhere between nothing and something… I keep on searching for something but I always come up with nothing… It feels like searching a needle in a stack of hay… There’s a hallow feeling inside me that is eating me up. I’m getting restless and I’m running out of hope… Maybe this darkness in me would swallow me if I can’t find my light soon.

I’m getting more hopeless everyday… I feel very lonely and alone and it feels like my life is void of colors… I hope someone would come and bring a light and paint my life colorful…

 - ivy

March 13, 2008 Posted by c0okieeatingpanda | Expressionless | | 1 Comment

HI!

I’ve always been imagining myself meeting a complete stranger… (I know it’s a bit creepy..) Then we would become close friends! I really hope that someday, somehow, someone would really have the courage to say hi and ask me to be his friend.. Even just for that single day.. Sigh…

It’s really annoying when someone says hi and it’s meaningless.. You know what I mean?? Like bruh pointed out to me before, there are too many people who don’t have anything to do with their life… Why say hi when you don’t know them and you don’t want to know them.. (I know it’s contradicting! But they have two different meanings.)

I want the kind of HI! that when I hear it I would really feel it! (I don’t really make sense…) I just hope someday our paths would cross… Whoever he is!

- bebeh 

March 7, 2008 Posted by c0okieeatingpanda | Expressionless | | 2 Comments

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